Bad Days

I am lucky to have had all of the success that I have in my recovery, but the past three days have been bad ones.  I awoke this morning to the ACC financial crimes detective calling and telling me all the info he needs to follow through on my police report...Several weeks before surgery, an unwholesome person decided that he needed some items online (including a vacation) and charged them to my credit card...Not a very low stress experience when you have a disease that is triggered by and worsens with stress.

So needless to say I spent the next three hours of my day dealing with awful customer service and legalities about what they can't release to me, but wait...you allowed this person to purchase your product or service with a name that did not match the credit card and you are going to protect his rights.  Gotta love it.  Fortunately one of the companies, Webroot did actually end up being helpful after I had to leave a message for the legal department...and who ends up helping me, the sales department supervisor and one of his agents.  I was previously told twice by two different sales agents that they could not give me any information even though it was my card charged.  It makes me want to scream, but I just take a pain pill instead.  That at least takes away the pain from surgery.

I also wish I could really be on leave and not have anything to do with school.(Not including the emails saying hello and checking on me, but the ones involving work)  I think I really might stop checking my school email altogether, only problem is the mess it creates when it all gets backed up and I would miss the happy emails sating hello.  I could just delete everything as it comes in and only respond to emails to my home email address.

I have so little energy as it is, I am frustrated to use it on trivial things that only up my stress level.  I can't do everything I want to and if you know me, that is upsetting...if you don't, I have a real problem not being able to do everything under the sun and even more so asking people to do tings for me.

On top of exhaustion, the past three days have reminded me how much I hate this disease.  Joints that you don't even realize you use everyday are affected by AS.  Never ever take for granted your back and its ability to support your entire body.  Everything hurts so bad, I just want to lay still, but by the time I am comfortable, my body has started working against me and is getting stiff.

I know I will make it through, but I still have 12 days until I get to restart my AS meds.  Oh please let them go by fast.