Weekends...

I try everyday to be positive and care more about others than my disease, but everyone tells me to take care of myself.  I try to do both. How can I when I feel awful?  I want a clean house, I want the laundry hung up and clean, I want to be pain free. Weekends are a much needed time to rest and for me to recuperate but my personality doesn't function well just doing nothing.  It is such a constant cycle.  

Fortunately, Dr. Nik is concerned about my pain.  The shots are painful, but the relief is well worth it.  Next week I get to go back to Dr. Nik again and to Dr. Griffin.  I am hoping for Dr. Griffin's wisdom to guide my treatment.  As much as I hate the pills, I am truly open to more meds if it means a decrease in pain.

I am on year number seven of teaching and for 5 years I never took a day off, even with this chronic disease.  It is truly a progressive disease.  I hate being out.  Teachers understand that being out is more work than being sick and at work.  Unfortunately, as I  explain to my sweet kiddos, the doctors don't work after school.  It creates even more anxiety for me having to be at the doctor. I hold out hope that the pain will be gone sometime soon...